Regretted

Dear readers,

I want to shares my problems,what i am having now and my feeling.. at my University, i have found that finding a friend is not that easy. i have a lot of friend but none of them are good friend.. some of them step my back and says bad thing about me. i do have a weakness but they do not make their own friend embarrassed. do they think i am their friend?

i used to play netball. in our team, there is a conflict among us. ms I always keep looking for others mistakes but her own mistakes she did not realized. hate her.. besides, she always keep closed to our coach. what the @#$%.. hate to see a person like her. she act likes she knows everything. why people surrounds me so irritating.. why there is no a good friend? i only have Flora and few of my friends.

do they think they are good enough to make others feels damn?? what i hate most is one of my trusted friend said i am playing netball like a dog! oh please...do they even saw a DOG playing netball?? they sucks though...i know i am not good enough to be one of them as excellent player.. worst than ever is my own friend who used to closed with me says bad thing bout me.. what do you feel if your own friend said like that?? it is hurt....

they treat me nicely but talking bad about me to others.. are they a good friends?? they should advise each other but not step back of each other...i am really regretted for having a friend like them..

about love, i told my friend that i already clash.. she told me that my ex have scandal... i was so angry, regretted,sad, and so for... HATE HIM!!!! HATE HIM BECAUSE I LOVE HIM!..=..( he was my first love and till now i still miss him but i don't want to return because he is egoism. lets i am hurting myself ,rather than with his egoism.. he made me thought of love is suck.. and i don't believe love for this time..after knowing he have scandal, i feel likes...i don't know how to describe my feeling..its hurt......

friendship,love...both of it, i have fails.. i am regretted for my ex and my #$%&* friends... i can release my tension and stress through blogger because i don't want to trust others but only certain people...

now, i have no idea how to confront them..because everyday i met them and make slumber face and make do know about what had happened.. i feel bad.. i only trust God, my family and few friends..

regretted,
One Unity

my best friend forever..

i have a friend named Flora D.D. she was very generous and pretty funny. i met her last semester where both of us very close among each other compared to my other room mates. she is Sabahan girl and very nice person.

when i was in difficult time, she was there to help me.. there was i time where my KP send me to the clinic as my left leg injured and bleeding, she willing to help me when i am in need.

we are very close, shares everything bout each others.. during a weekend, we spend time together watched movie, dinner,lunch, breakfast..etc. i always shared my problems to her. she always keep me smile and make a jokes to make me laughed. i am very happy with her.

recently,this semester we are separated as she is not my room mate. i have found that she was totally changed...she became very quiet girl. i asked why, she said she is lonely.. i felt bad..really bad. i know she having a problem but she refused to tell me. i felt sad..i went to her room last night to visit her. i asked her room mate how is she..they said she is not feeling well. i was very...:(

she has gastric,coughing but she said she is fine. when i went to her room which was my room last semester, i felt very burden because that room reminds me a lot me of thing. i insist to go even though i felt really shacking and sad. just because i want to meet her, i should go. i miss her as my best friend forever. she's look weak but keep smiles at me..thats made me hurt.

i straight away left her room with tears..luckily she did not saw me..i am stupid because i am not there when she needs friend. i cant do what she had done to me...now, i just saw her from far..i want she happy with her friends. she message me, i did not reply at all. because..i am feel guilty to her..besides, she has bff who is not me.. i hope she doing well..it is okay i am alone at least i know she is happy..

she always said to me that she wants to have a power to fly..i just smiles and says she is nonsense. when i saw her,i feel sad. i dont know why.. what i have realised, she is my first best friend ever after..

sorry i am not there when u alone,
sorry i am not pay off what u did to me,
sorry for everything........

regretted,
One Unity

argghh...H1N1 in campus!!!

OMG...

i cant believe my campus infected by H1N1.. 7students are quarantine. this is not good..nooo'oo..

how could i study with this condition? and others?? :(

i hate H1N1... its human's fault. errrghh..

we cant study peacefully.. cannot see people safe and happy..u H1N1!

i warned u H1N1..if i cannot focus on my study, I KILL U! before u KILL me..huhu :(

if u can help in study its okay but U DONT! make my life difficult instead..eeee...

pity of then who infected by H1N1..

Tired Day in 1st week of year 2

Hi all,


Sorry because it is been a long time I did not post any blog during this period of time. Today, i felt very tired all day long..=( my classes was not full but the arrangement of schedules is very tiring. Can you imagine my classes started at 8am-10am then go replacement class at mid day at 12pm-1.30pm,after that at 2pm-4pm. Argghh... not only that, at4.30pm i have my co.but after my friend and i arrived at sports centre,they simply said co.was cancel. So cruel! Huhu=( why don’t they just display a notice that co.is cancel then? That simple thing they cannot even do..


Not only that, i felt guilty because during my registration course, i was forgot to check the group of co..and my friends’ registration course also i did not check for them..the most thing made me disappointed was there is no more netball for me as i was took the course during my last semester.. i was totally blurred and tired. My friends ask me to joined them to participate in volleyball but i am not interested because i don’t know how to play that particular sports. my other friend suggest me to take Human Mentality which i don’t know what the heck is that about.huu..=( till now i am still thinking what i suppose to take as a my co..dance? volleyball? Acting? Huh..no idea...


Beside,tomorrow i have presentation about grammatical to revised what we have learnt last semester. I am sure this semester will be tougher than in the past semester..i knew it...huhu.. moreover, our main task is thesis statement which entitle, “the dependence of foreign workers in Malaysia and its implication”. Arghhh.. where i could find the material and sources? Wikipedia? News? Blogger? Urm.. better for me to sleep first..


Gudnite all,don’t sleep late other wise your eye get worse..believe me..=p i set the time before i post it.
12:22am
One Unity