dah hampir 2bln arwah bapa ku pergi meninggalkan kami.. hati ku masih merindu nya,,
kasih bapa tak ada sapa yang tahu melainkan Allah yang menciptanya.. selama ini ku tahan rasa sebak di dada.. sangat sakit dan pilu.. hanya Tuhan saja yg tahu betapa ku merindu bapa ku.. ku tak tahu arwah ditempatkan di mana.. apa yang ku pkir, ku berdoa agarnya berada d sisi Tuhan..
aku bukan seorang kawan yang peramah..selalunya aku menyendiri berbanding bergaul dengan kawan2.. ku rasa ku masih lagi dalam keadaan tidak stabil.. ku perlukan seseorang untuk menemaniku..menceriakan ku..aku tahu ada seseorang yang boleh buatku gembira tapi dia dah tiada..
hanya Tuhan tahu dan mengira titisan air mata ku tiap kali aku menangis..
apa yang ku mau sekarang adalah menziarahi kubur arwah..ku ingin menangis puas2 d sana..tp bila kah saat itu?
kwn2 ku selalu bercerita tentang bapa mereka..aku rasa tersentuh..kerna aku tidak lagi dapat memanggil bapa ku yang Tuhan anugerahkan untukku di dunia ini melainkan bapa ku di surga..
sungguh berat dugaan yang Kau berikan padaku Yesus...ku cuba bertahan..ku tau Kau takkan bagi cubaan yang tak dapatku tempuh..janganlah mengambil nyawa insan yang ku sayang Yesus..ku tau sudah tiba waktunya tapi..ku masih lemah untuk hadapinya..
tahun ini tahun paling menyedihkan bagiku..
hatiku rasa sangat pilu..seperti dibasahi air mata tanpa henti tanpa diketahui sapa pn..
dulu arwah bapa selalu berkata,"belajarlah pandai2 agar hidup anak-anakku tidak susah seperti yang ku harungi.." aku simpan ayat itu..
penattttt..
ku dah gelap dah tok..aduh.. awal pagi sok berangkat g sabah dah..asa malas ak g..
ku nk balik umah.. xda semangat nak main.. teamku hancur..xda teamwork.
geram ku... there's no point having new jerc, going off bla3..
i want to quit!!@!!
xpala...ku pergi tgk negeri org jak..ckpla..
huhu..
rindu mak....
rindu arwah.................................................................
ku dah gelap dah tok..aduh.. awal pagi sok berangkat g sabah dah..asa malas ak g..
ku nk balik umah.. xda semangat nak main.. teamku hancur..xda teamwork.
geram ku... there's no point having new jerc, going off bla3..
i want to quit!!@!!
xpala...ku pergi tgk negeri org jak..ckpla..
huhu..
rindu mak....
rindu arwah.................................................................
aduh....penat!!
woke up at 6a.m., kemas blk mau clearance sebab cuti semester dh bermula tapi aku xbalik lg sebab aku ada training nih..ehhee..
di hari pertama ni, kami ada meeting jam7a.m sepatutnya tapi pihak pengurusan lambat sampai, jam8a.m..
lepas briefing, kami jalan g Kolej Gading round2. kebetulan, aku n kawanku g clearance terus.. hahahahaha
and then, kami sepatutnya selepas itu g Kolej Serapi n Mulu tapi x sebab ambik masa kit, so kmi blk lah g unit sukan.
kami mkn2 then training terus smpai matahari naik atas kepala..fuh, panas gler..
pastu kmi balik, kemas and angkat brg2 kwn2 d dorm aku..berat!!!! but fun.
hehehehe..
nnt mlm d unit sukan g mkn.hehehee..
so,sekian saja untuk laporan pada hari pertama.
hehhehehe..=)
woke up at 6a.m., kemas blk mau clearance sebab cuti semester dh bermula tapi aku xbalik lg sebab aku ada training nih..ehhee..
di hari pertama ni, kami ada meeting jam7a.m sepatutnya tapi pihak pengurusan lambat sampai, jam8a.m..
lepas briefing, kami jalan g Kolej Gading round2. kebetulan, aku n kawanku g clearance terus.. hahahahaha
and then, kami sepatutnya selepas itu g Kolej Serapi n Mulu tapi x sebab ambik masa kit, so kmi blk lah g unit sukan.
kami mkn2 then training terus smpai matahari naik atas kepala..fuh, panas gler..
pastu kmi balik, kemas and angkat brg2 kwn2 d dorm aku..berat!!!! but fun.
hehehehe..
nnt mlm d unit sukan g mkn.hehehee..
so,sekian saja untuk laporan pada hari pertama.
hehhehehe..=)
hari ini,
aku tersenyum sendiri mengenangkan nasib diri..
tp ku tahu, hidup ini penuh cabaran kan?
jadi, aku kan tabah, aku akan belajr bersungguh2, aku akan buat sehabis baik dan hidup untuk TUHAN.. yaa, mmg itu yg sepatutnya kt lakukan..
yeaahhhhhh!!! chaiyok ci!! kau pasti akan gembira! kau pasti akan terubat terubat ht! Tuhan akan membimbingmu...amen!
takpe xda teman rapat, yg penting aku tau apa nk bt..
akan ada kwn sejati hadir..aku pasti...
TUHAN lagi tau, dan kt harus percaya pdnya...
aku tersenyum sendiri mengenangkan nasib diri..
tp ku tahu, hidup ini penuh cabaran kan?
jadi, aku kan tabah, aku akan belajr bersungguh2, aku akan buat sehabis baik dan hidup untuk TUHAN.. yaa, mmg itu yg sepatutnya kt lakukan..
yeaahhhhhh!!! chaiyok ci!! kau pasti akan gembira! kau pasti akan terubat terubat ht! Tuhan akan membimbingmu...amen!
takpe xda teman rapat, yg penting aku tau apa nk bt..
akan ada kwn sejati hadir..aku pasti...
TUHAN lagi tau, dan kt harus percaya pdnya...
tanggal 10nov2009, orang yang paling ku sayang telah pergi meninggalkn kami sekeluarga, kemalangan d tempat kerja. hati ku sampai sekarang masih dalam kemurungan, masih xdapat terima hakikat bahawa bapa ku telah tiada..
sepanjang hidup ini, aku tidak pernah meraihkan hari jadi maupun hari Bapa.. padahal, bapa ku tidak pernah menolak permintaan ku. tp aku sedikit pun xpernah menghargainya..
bila dia dah pergi, baru aku menyesal kerna terlambat menyatakan bahawa aku sangat sangat dengannya..
tiap hari ku harungi hidup ini, hati ku bagai kosong d suatu tempat yang dahulu telah dipenuhi oleh kasih syg seorang bapa.. kadang2 ku masih ingat bahwa dia masih hidup, sedang bekerja..tp, bila saat ku sedar, aku menangis...menangis merinduinya..
dulu, aku selalu bersama nya keluar.. aku rapat dengan bapa ku.. apa yg aku inginkan, semua dibelinya.. bapa ku tidak mau melihat kmi beradik mengidam apa kmi inginkan.. dia akan berusaha beli juga. aku suka buah epal, bapa ku salu bellikan untukku..
sekarang, bila aku ke pasar, aku tak lg menginginkan apa2 kerna tidak ada sorang pn yg akan belikan sesuatu untukku.. betapa kasihnya bapa ku terhadap kmi beradik.. tiada bapa dlam dunia ni sebaik bapa ku..
aku masih ingat lg pesan bapaku, agar kmi beradik belajar bersungguh2.. aku takkan sia2kan amanatnya.. susah mcmna pn, aku akan berusaha sbb hanya itu yg mampu ku lakukan..
beliau menghembus nafas terakhir selepas 5minit aku smpai d hospital.. dia seperti menunggu ku.. smpai d sn, ht ku bagai nk runtuh melihat keadaan yang sangat menyakitkan..wajahnya yg sentiasa terukir senyuman, dibasahi dengan air mata....
aku takkn lupakan saat itu sepanjang hidupku..
dan... aku takkan pergi lagi ke pantai atau melihat laut, kerna ia mengingatkn ku ttg bapa ku yang menahan kesakitan selama 3jam di dalam bot untuk smp ke hospital Labuan..
aku juga takkan pergi menjejak kaki ke Labuan, kerna aku meninggalkan tempat itu dengan hati yang pilu sekali..
aku masih ingat lagi apa yang ibu ku katakan pada body nya sebelum dihantar ke tanah perkuburan, bahwa ibu ku tidak tahu mcmna nk menyara kmi beradik sedangkn tidak berpelajran.. aku sungguh pilu mendengarnya dan tgn ibu ku tidak melepaskan tgnku di saat pergi ke tanah perkuburan...
aku adalah anak emas bapa ku...dia sangat syggg dengan anak-anaknya.. bapa bekerja kerna mau adik ku pergi belajar berenang untuk ambil pekerjaan di tmpt kerja nya dengan menggunakn duit simpanannya..sekarang, suma itu punah..hancur... ada pn duit pampasan maupun gajinya, suma itu tak setanding dengan kasih sayangnya terhadap kmi..
aku berdoa agar bapa ku aman di tempat yg lain..kerna di dunia ini, dia sangat menderita..seorang demi seorang adik2nya meninggal dan skrg, bapa ku sendiri meninggalkn kmi......
sekarang, aku hanya ada mak. aku dan beradik yg lain akan jaga mak.. aku takkn buat mak sedih. aku mau lihat mak tersenyum. aku mau mak ketawa.. aku tau ibu ku perit.. tp, hanya Tuhan sj yg tau keadaan kmi sekeluarga..
aku yakin, ada hikmah di sebalik kehidupan ini.. dan aku pasti, apa yang terjadi adalah jalan yg terbaik yang telah Tuhan pilih untuk kita..
sayangi lah bapa anda selagi dia masih hidup..kerna aku tidak mau, anda semua rasakan apa yg aku rasakan....
sepanjang hidup ini, aku tidak pernah meraihkan hari jadi maupun hari Bapa.. padahal, bapa ku tidak pernah menolak permintaan ku. tp aku sedikit pun xpernah menghargainya..
bila dia dah pergi, baru aku menyesal kerna terlambat menyatakan bahawa aku sangat sangat dengannya..
tiap hari ku harungi hidup ini, hati ku bagai kosong d suatu tempat yang dahulu telah dipenuhi oleh kasih syg seorang bapa.. kadang2 ku masih ingat bahwa dia masih hidup, sedang bekerja..tp, bila saat ku sedar, aku menangis...menangis merinduinya..
dulu, aku selalu bersama nya keluar.. aku rapat dengan bapa ku.. apa yg aku inginkan, semua dibelinya.. bapa ku tidak mau melihat kmi beradik mengidam apa kmi inginkan.. dia akan berusaha beli juga. aku suka buah epal, bapa ku salu bellikan untukku..
sekarang, bila aku ke pasar, aku tak lg menginginkan apa2 kerna tidak ada sorang pn yg akan belikan sesuatu untukku.. betapa kasihnya bapa ku terhadap kmi beradik.. tiada bapa dlam dunia ni sebaik bapa ku..
aku masih ingat lg pesan bapaku, agar kmi beradik belajar bersungguh2.. aku takkan sia2kan amanatnya.. susah mcmna pn, aku akan berusaha sbb hanya itu yg mampu ku lakukan..
beliau menghembus nafas terakhir selepas 5minit aku smpai d hospital.. dia seperti menunggu ku.. smpai d sn, ht ku bagai nk runtuh melihat keadaan yang sangat menyakitkan..wajahnya yg sentiasa terukir senyuman, dibasahi dengan air mata....
aku takkn lupakan saat itu sepanjang hidupku..
dan... aku takkan pergi lagi ke pantai atau melihat laut, kerna ia mengingatkn ku ttg bapa ku yang menahan kesakitan selama 3jam di dalam bot untuk smp ke hospital Labuan..
aku juga takkan pergi menjejak kaki ke Labuan, kerna aku meninggalkan tempat itu dengan hati yang pilu sekali..
aku masih ingat lagi apa yang ibu ku katakan pada body nya sebelum dihantar ke tanah perkuburan, bahwa ibu ku tidak tahu mcmna nk menyara kmi beradik sedangkn tidak berpelajran.. aku sungguh pilu mendengarnya dan tgn ibu ku tidak melepaskan tgnku di saat pergi ke tanah perkuburan...
aku adalah anak emas bapa ku...dia sangat syggg dengan anak-anaknya.. bapa bekerja kerna mau adik ku pergi belajar berenang untuk ambil pekerjaan di tmpt kerja nya dengan menggunakn duit simpanannya..sekarang, suma itu punah..hancur... ada pn duit pampasan maupun gajinya, suma itu tak setanding dengan kasih sayangnya terhadap kmi..
aku berdoa agar bapa ku aman di tempat yg lain..kerna di dunia ini, dia sangat menderita..seorang demi seorang adik2nya meninggal dan skrg, bapa ku sendiri meninggalkn kmi......
sekarang, aku hanya ada mak. aku dan beradik yg lain akan jaga mak.. aku takkn buat mak sedih. aku mau lihat mak tersenyum. aku mau mak ketawa.. aku tau ibu ku perit.. tp, hanya Tuhan sj yg tau keadaan kmi sekeluarga..
aku yakin, ada hikmah di sebalik kehidupan ini.. dan aku pasti, apa yang terjadi adalah jalan yg terbaik yang telah Tuhan pilih untuk kita..
sayangi lah bapa anda selagi dia masih hidup..kerna aku tidak mau, anda semua rasakan apa yg aku rasakan....
long time i did not post my blog here because i am quiet busy with my assignments, project works, presentation and so for.. here i would like to share to all readers who coincidently read this blog with the title above..
at my campus, i have met all types of students or friends. some of them are friendly, some prejudice among them self, some are big head for their 'genius brain'..arhh..crab.
i do have all that kind of friend(s).. they were so annoying and i can't stand with them. ok...first category is BIG HEAD STUDENTS.
Big head students sometimes useless for me.. even though they were clever than the others, but they DO did discrimination towards other students. for example, me myself.. i have known this girl since i came to our campus. at first, i was thought she is a kind of helping friend but she don't. i still remember last semester i ask her favor to teach me about depreciation in accounting because that time i am really struggle to get a good result. she do teach me but behind my back...huh...u want to know what she told to others??? she said i am slow pick up for what she had teach me and said that i am stupid cannot do that easy topic..arhhhh.. i knew she is DEAN LIST but don't underestimate me even though i am slow pick up.. hate that. she thought that she is clever, smarter than other then she could say like that??? seems like she was dishonest to teach me though. since that incident, i no longer go to her room or even asks her about topics that i do not understand. such a big head student does not going anywhere if she keeps playing around her friends like she does before.
second category is FRIEND ONLY WHEN THEY NEED US.. this category were sucks man.. i have majority this kind of friends. i am distress, tension, annoyed...etc. this group of friend i was known them 2 last semester. this semester they stayed just next door. i am totally regretted dude..so fish. at first, they want to borrow my new umbrella which myself have not used yet.. because i am pity of them walks to outside campus when that day was raining, so i lend to her.. when she was back home, she told me that she lost my NEW umbrella.. ok..it was my umbrella..that i said its ok then.. she promise to buy new one for my. till now she didnt buy but she do give my some money to me and asks me to buy it myself..duhh?? next...some person also. she went to my room and ask a favor to borrow my bag. that moment, i have a new bag that i bought at miri ( colorful bag)..i was thinking, i have not used that bag but as a friend, i lend to her. so, she used it. i was thought she just borrow it for a day or 2 days but for a 2 WEEKS CRAB! u know, during our emergency holidays because of H1N1, she brings back home my bag WITHOUT telling me!! i went to her room to get back my back but that time i was to late...cis..i was really mad.. when she come back, she return it to me because she already bought new one.. one day, i used that bag to class.. i was really embarrassed when my friend ask me why im using D*** bag. i said, it was my bag...and smile.. hate that moment! she was lucky i did not said that D*** borrows my bags more than i pleased and brings back home my bag! huhhh.. next.. u know what she borrow??? my BAJU KURUNG! damn... she always borrows my stuffs! hate that.. i cant reject what my friends want to borrow because im pity with their face needs help.. but they step my head because of my kindness!! what a friendssss... then, one of her close friend whom my friend to, also same as her.. no wonder they stick together and borrowing others stuffs. she borrows my high heel that morning. i was shock because i was not expected she came to my room. for me, she will not comes to my room unless want t borrow something. and i am RIGHT. at first she talks to me asking what i am doing and so for. than, she asked that she want to borrow my high heel. i was shocked.. how did she know that i do have high heel? she said she saw it below my bed. OMG.. i said maybe we are not same size but she said its okay.. she took white plastic below my bed and ask to borrow. i said OK. she left my room without saying THANK YOU FRIEND! then, that evening, she came again with my friend next door. she said she want to borrow my beauty dress. i said i dont have any. then she said give me dress that is better than others. i have no choice s i let she borrow my cute dress..huhu.... hate them!
so, dont mixed with that type of friends.. im in dilemma now...because of them..
at my campus, i have met all types of students or friends. some of them are friendly, some prejudice among them self, some are big head for their 'genius brain'..arhh..crab.
i do have all that kind of friend(s).. they were so annoying and i can't stand with them. ok...first category is BIG HEAD STUDENTS.
Big head students sometimes useless for me.. even though they were clever than the others, but they DO did discrimination towards other students. for example, me myself.. i have known this girl since i came to our campus. at first, i was thought she is a kind of helping friend but she don't. i still remember last semester i ask her favor to teach me about depreciation in accounting because that time i am really struggle to get a good result. she do teach me but behind my back...huh...u want to know what she told to others??? she said i am slow pick up for what she had teach me and said that i am stupid cannot do that easy topic..arhhhh.. i knew she is DEAN LIST but don't underestimate me even though i am slow pick up.. hate that. she thought that she is clever, smarter than other then she could say like that??? seems like she was dishonest to teach me though. since that incident, i no longer go to her room or even asks her about topics that i do not understand. such a big head student does not going anywhere if she keeps playing around her friends like she does before.
second category is FRIEND ONLY WHEN THEY NEED US.. this category were sucks man.. i have majority this kind of friends. i am distress, tension, annoyed...etc. this group of friend i was known them 2 last semester. this semester they stayed just next door. i am totally regretted dude..so fish. at first, they want to borrow my new umbrella which myself have not used yet.. because i am pity of them walks to outside campus when that day was raining, so i lend to her.. when she was back home, she told me that she lost my NEW umbrella.. ok..it was my umbrella..that i said its ok then.. she promise to buy new one for my. till now she didnt buy but she do give my some money to me and asks me to buy it myself..duhh?? next...some person also. she went to my room and ask a favor to borrow my bag. that moment, i have a new bag that i bought at miri ( colorful bag)..i was thinking, i have not used that bag but as a friend, i lend to her. so, she used it. i was thought she just borrow it for a day or 2 days but for a 2 WEEKS CRAB! u know, during our emergency holidays because of H1N1, she brings back home my bag WITHOUT telling me!! i went to her room to get back my back but that time i was to late...cis..i was really mad.. when she come back, she return it to me because she already bought new one.. one day, i used that bag to class.. i was really embarrassed when my friend ask me why im using D*** bag. i said, it was my bag...and smile.. hate that moment! she was lucky i did not said that D*** borrows my bags more than i pleased and brings back home my bag! huhhh.. next.. u know what she borrow??? my BAJU KURUNG! damn... she always borrows my stuffs! hate that.. i cant reject what my friends want to borrow because im pity with their face needs help.. but they step my head because of my kindness!! what a friendssss... then, one of her close friend whom my friend to, also same as her.. no wonder they stick together and borrowing others stuffs. she borrows my high heel that morning. i was shock because i was not expected she came to my room. for me, she will not comes to my room unless want t borrow something. and i am RIGHT. at first she talks to me asking what i am doing and so for. than, she asked that she want to borrow my high heel. i was shocked.. how did she know that i do have high heel? she said she saw it below my bed. OMG.. i said maybe we are not same size but she said its okay.. she took white plastic below my bed and ask to borrow. i said OK. she left my room without saying THANK YOU FRIEND! then, that evening, she came again with my friend next door. she said she want to borrow my beauty dress. i said i dont have any. then she said give me dress that is better than others. i have no choice s i let she borrow my cute dress..huhu.... hate them!
so, dont mixed with that type of friends.. im in dilemma now...because of them..
Dear readers,
I want to shares my problems,what i am having now and my feeling.. at my University, i have found that finding a friend is not that easy. i have a lot of friend but none of them are good friend.. some of them step my back and says bad thing about me. i do have a weakness but they do not make their own friend embarrassed. do they think i am their friend?
i used to play netball. in our team, there is a conflict among us. ms I always keep looking for others mistakes but her own mistakes she did not realized. hate her.. besides, she always keep closed to our coach. what the @#$%.. hate to see a person like her. she act likes she knows everything. why people surrounds me so irritating.. why there is no a good friend? i only have Flora and few of my friends.
do they think they are good enough to make others feels damn?? what i hate most is one of my trusted friend said i am playing netball like a dog! oh please...do they even saw a DOG playing netball?? they sucks though...i know i am not good enough to be one of them as excellent player.. worst than ever is my own friend who used to closed with me says bad thing bout me.. what do you feel if your own friend said like that?? it is hurt....
they treat me nicely but talking bad about me to others.. are they a good friends?? they should advise each other but not step back of each other...i am really regretted for having a friend like them..
about love, i told my friend that i already clash.. she told me that my ex have scandal... i was so angry, regretted,sad, and so for... HATE HIM!!!! HATE HIM BECAUSE I LOVE HIM!..=..( he was my first love and till now i still miss him but i don't want to return because he is egoism. lets i am hurting myself ,rather than with his egoism.. he made me thought of love is suck.. and i don't believe love for this time..after knowing he have scandal, i feel likes...i don't know how to describe my feeling..its hurt......
friendship,love...both of it, i have fails.. i am regretted for my ex and my #$%&* friends... i can release my tension and stress through blogger because i don't want to trust others but only certain people...
now, i have no idea how to confront them..because everyday i met them and make slumber face and make do know about what had happened.. i feel bad.. i only trust God, my family and few friends..
regretted,
One Unity
I want to shares my problems,what i am having now and my feeling.. at my University, i have found that finding a friend is not that easy. i have a lot of friend but none of them are good friend.. some of them step my back and says bad thing about me. i do have a weakness but they do not make their own friend embarrassed. do they think i am their friend?
i used to play netball. in our team, there is a conflict among us. ms I always keep looking for others mistakes but her own mistakes she did not realized. hate her.. besides, she always keep closed to our coach. what the @#$%.. hate to see a person like her. she act likes she knows everything. why people surrounds me so irritating.. why there is no a good friend? i only have Flora and few of my friends.
do they think they are good enough to make others feels damn?? what i hate most is one of my trusted friend said i am playing netball like a dog! oh please...do they even saw a DOG playing netball?? they sucks though...i know i am not good enough to be one of them as excellent player.. worst than ever is my own friend who used to closed with me says bad thing bout me.. what do you feel if your own friend said like that?? it is hurt....
they treat me nicely but talking bad about me to others.. are they a good friends?? they should advise each other but not step back of each other...i am really regretted for having a friend like them..
about love, i told my friend that i already clash.. she told me that my ex have scandal... i was so angry, regretted,sad, and so for... HATE HIM!!!! HATE HIM BECAUSE I LOVE HIM!..=..( he was my first love and till now i still miss him but i don't want to return because he is egoism. lets i am hurting myself ,rather than with his egoism.. he made me thought of love is suck.. and i don't believe love for this time..after knowing he have scandal, i feel likes...i don't know how to describe my feeling..its hurt......
friendship,love...both of it, i have fails.. i am regretted for my ex and my #$%&* friends... i can release my tension and stress through blogger because i don't want to trust others but only certain people...
now, i have no idea how to confront them..because everyday i met them and make slumber face and make do know about what had happened.. i feel bad.. i only trust God, my family and few friends..
regretted,
One Unity
i have a friend named Flora D.D. she was very generous and pretty funny. i met her last semester where both of us very close among each other compared to my other room mates. she is Sabahan girl and very nice person.
when i was in difficult time, she was there to help me.. there was i time where my KP send me to the clinic as my left leg injured and bleeding, she willing to help me when i am in need.
we are very close, shares everything bout each others.. during a weekend, we spend time together watched movie, dinner,lunch, breakfast..etc. i always shared my problems to her. she always keep me smile and make a jokes to make me laughed. i am very happy with her.
recently,this semester we are separated as she is not my room mate. i have found that she was totally changed...she became very quiet girl. i asked why, she said she is lonely.. i felt bad..really bad. i know she having a problem but she refused to tell me. i felt sad..i went to her room last night to visit her. i asked her room mate how is she..they said she is not feeling well. i was very...:(
she has gastric,coughing but she said she is fine. when i went to her room which was my room last semester, i felt very burden because that room reminds me a lot me of thing. i insist to go even though i felt really shacking and sad. just because i want to meet her, i should go. i miss her as my best friend forever. she's look weak but keep smiles at me..thats made me hurt.
i straight away left her room with tears..luckily she did not saw me..i am stupid because i am not there when she needs friend. i cant do what she had done to me...now, i just saw her from far..i want she happy with her friends. she message me, i did not reply at all. because..i am feel guilty to her..besides, she has bff who is not me.. i hope she doing well..it is okay i am alone at least i know she is happy..
she always said to me that she wants to have a power to fly..i just smiles and says she is nonsense. when i saw her,i feel sad. i dont know why.. what i have realised, she is my first best friend ever after..
sorry i am not there when u alone,
sorry i am not pay off what u did to me,
sorry for everything........
regretted,
One Unity
when i was in difficult time, she was there to help me.. there was i time where my KP send me to the clinic as my left leg injured and bleeding, she willing to help me when i am in need.
we are very close, shares everything bout each others.. during a weekend, we spend time together watched movie, dinner,lunch, breakfast..etc. i always shared my problems to her. she always keep me smile and make a jokes to make me laughed. i am very happy with her.
recently,this semester we are separated as she is not my room mate. i have found that she was totally changed...she became very quiet girl. i asked why, she said she is lonely.. i felt bad..really bad. i know she having a problem but she refused to tell me. i felt sad..i went to her room last night to visit her. i asked her room mate how is she..they said she is not feeling well. i was very...:(
she has gastric,coughing but she said she is fine. when i went to her room which was my room last semester, i felt very burden because that room reminds me a lot me of thing. i insist to go even though i felt really shacking and sad. just because i want to meet her, i should go. i miss her as my best friend forever. she's look weak but keep smiles at me..thats made me hurt.
i straight away left her room with tears..luckily she did not saw me..i am stupid because i am not there when she needs friend. i cant do what she had done to me...now, i just saw her from far..i want she happy with her friends. she message me, i did not reply at all. because..i am feel guilty to her..besides, she has bff who is not me.. i hope she doing well..it is okay i am alone at least i know she is happy..
she always said to me that she wants to have a power to fly..i just smiles and says she is nonsense. when i saw her,i feel sad. i dont know why.. what i have realised, she is my first best friend ever after..
sorry i am not there when u alone,
sorry i am not pay off what u did to me,
sorry for everything........
regretted,
One Unity
OMG...
i cant believe my campus infected by H1N1.. 7students are quarantine. this is not good..nooo'oo..
how could i study with this condition? and others?? :(
i hate H1N1... its human's fault. errrghh..
we cant study peacefully.. cannot see people safe and happy..u H1N1!
i warned u H1N1..if i cannot focus on my study, I KILL U! before u KILL me..huhu :(
if u can help in study its okay but U DONT! make my life difficult instead..eeee...
pity of then who infected by H1N1..
i cant believe my campus infected by H1N1.. 7students are quarantine. this is not good..nooo'oo..
how could i study with this condition? and others?? :(
i hate H1N1... its human's fault. errrghh..
we cant study peacefully.. cannot see people safe and happy..u H1N1!
i warned u H1N1..if i cannot focus on my study, I KILL U! before u KILL me..huhu :(
if u can help in study its okay but U DONT! make my life difficult instead..eeee...
pity of then who infected by H1N1..
Hi all,
Sorry because it is been a long time I did not post any blog during this period of time. Today, i felt very tired all day long..=( my classes was not full but the arrangement of schedules is very tiring. Can you imagine my classes started at 8am-10am then go replacement class at mid day at 12pm-1.30pm,after that at 2pm-4pm. Argghh... not only that, at4.30pm i have my co.but after my friend and i arrived at sports centre,they simply said co.was cancel. So cruel! Huhu=( why don’t they just display a notice that co.is cancel then? That simple thing they cannot even do..
Not only that, i felt guilty because during my registration course, i was forgot to check the group of co..and my friends’ registration course also i did not check for them..the most thing made me disappointed was there is no more netball for me as i was took the course during my last semester.. i was totally blurred and tired. My friends ask me to joined them to participate in volleyball but i am not interested because i don’t know how to play that particular sports. my other friend suggest me to take Human Mentality which i don’t know what the heck is that about.huu..=( till now i am still thinking what i suppose to take as a my co..dance? volleyball? Acting? Huh..no idea...
Beside,tomorrow i have presentation about grammatical to revised what we have learnt last semester. I am sure this semester will be tougher than in the past semester..i knew it...huhu.. moreover, our main task is thesis statement which entitle, “the dependence of foreign workers in Malaysia and its implication”. Arghhh.. where i could find the material and sources? Wikipedia? News? Blogger? Urm.. better for me to sleep first..
Gudnite all,don’t sleep late other wise your eye get worse..believe me..=p i set the time before i post it.
12:22am
One Unity
Sorry because it is been a long time I did not post any blog during this period of time. Today, i felt very tired all day long..=( my classes was not full but the arrangement of schedules is very tiring. Can you imagine my classes started at 8am-10am then go replacement class at mid day at 12pm-1.30pm,after that at 2pm-4pm. Argghh... not only that, at4.30pm i have my co.but after my friend and i arrived at sports centre,they simply said co.was cancel. So cruel! Huhu=( why don’t they just display a notice that co.is cancel then? That simple thing they cannot even do..
Not only that, i felt guilty because during my registration course, i was forgot to check the group of co..and my friends’ registration course also i did not check for them..the most thing made me disappointed was there is no more netball for me as i was took the course during my last semester.. i was totally blurred and tired. My friends ask me to joined them to participate in volleyball but i am not interested because i don’t know how to play that particular sports. my other friend suggest me to take Human Mentality which i don’t know what the heck is that about.huu..=( till now i am still thinking what i suppose to take as a my co..dance? volleyball? Acting? Huh..no idea...
Beside,tomorrow i have presentation about grammatical to revised what we have learnt last semester. I am sure this semester will be tougher than in the past semester..i knew it...huhu.. moreover, our main task is thesis statement which entitle, “the dependence of foreign workers in Malaysia and its implication”. Arghhh.. where i could find the material and sources? Wikipedia? News? Blogger? Urm.. better for me to sleep first..
Gudnite all,don’t sleep late other wise your eye get worse..believe me..=p i set the time before i post it.
12:22am
One Unity
Dear dad,
He is so adorable for me.. My sibling and i never celebrate Father's Day till now.. Sometimes i felt regret because it's hard for me to show that i love him very much.. I love him but i don't know how to expressed as well as to my dear mum.
Dear dad,
He never dissappointed me..what i want, he gave my everything he can. I can see how much he love me and my brothers. He cares about us, he is doing his responsible as a father very well.
Dear dad,
Sorry dad..i can't tell u that i love u in front of you.. i only can expressed my feeling to you in here.. Even though i did not tell you dad, i will do what you want me to do... i will study hard for you and mum.. I will pay back what you have done dad.. if i already finish my diploma, on my graduation day, i will hug you and mum...
Dear Dad,
i miss you always.. sometimes i cry at campus.. i can imagine how hard is you working at platform. i will put your photo with mum in front of my table as i will remember you always..
me,One Unity
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY DAD..
He is so adorable for me.. My sibling and i never celebrate Father's Day till now.. Sometimes i felt regret because it's hard for me to show that i love him very much.. I love him but i don't know how to expressed as well as to my dear mum.
Dear dad,
He never dissappointed me..what i want, he gave my everything he can. I can see how much he love me and my brothers. He cares about us, he is doing his responsible as a father very well.
Dear dad,
Sorry dad..i can't tell u that i love u in front of you.. i only can expressed my feeling to you in here.. Even though i did not tell you dad, i will do what you want me to do... i will study hard for you and mum.. I will pay back what you have done dad.. if i already finish my diploma, on my graduation day, i will hug you and mum...
Dear Dad,
i miss you always.. sometimes i cry at campus.. i can imagine how hard is you working at platform. i will put your photo with mum in front of my table as i will remember you always..
me,One Unity
HAPPY FATHER'S DAY DAD..
Dear reader,
I felt so bored today..i don't know what to do till the end of my holiday before i leave my family to Kuching back to campus..=( i felt sorry left my mum alone when my elder brother is working. My second brother already went back to UMS (Universiti Malaysia Sabah) because he is one of the MPP ( Majlis Perwakilan Pelajar) in his campus.
Then, tomorrow we do prayer night for my younger brother which be held in our house.. Our relatives,neighbours are invited. Father Ugil will lead the day to pray for him, hoping that he will know what his purpose going to Politeknik Mukah and may God bless him as my brother is very kind to other people even people did not treat him as he did.
My mum very worried about him because my mum and he never separate with each other.. My dad is in oversea work as a foreman. We are not rich people..
Now i felt very empty.. nothing to do,bored,.. if i do have a license, definitely im going to beach,spend my time there alone while eating some BBQ, feel the sand and walk along the beach.. if i could do that......
everyday i stay late till i slept almost 3 a.m. because i did not felt sleepy at all. This is because at campus during this time im studying. next Saturday,i go back to campus.. seems like i will miss my room,kitchen..as i did not cook at campus as we already provided by campus a fews cafe and canteen..i love to cook but i can't..if i could do that....
sometimes,i want to lie down on the grass and feel the wind..could i do that? i dont know..i just want some peace place and talk to nature...if i could do that...
now, what i suppose to do? listing the need in campus? urmm..perhaps.
so,gudbye! =)
me, one unity...
I felt so bored today..i don't know what to do till the end of my holiday before i leave my family to Kuching back to campus..=( i felt sorry left my mum alone when my elder brother is working. My second brother already went back to UMS (Universiti Malaysia Sabah) because he is one of the MPP ( Majlis Perwakilan Pelajar) in his campus.
Then, tomorrow we do prayer night for my younger brother which be held in our house.. Our relatives,neighbours are invited. Father Ugil will lead the day to pray for him, hoping that he will know what his purpose going to Politeknik Mukah and may God bless him as my brother is very kind to other people even people did not treat him as he did.
My mum very worried about him because my mum and he never separate with each other.. My dad is in oversea work as a foreman. We are not rich people..
Now i felt very empty.. nothing to do,bored,.. if i do have a license, definitely im going to beach,spend my time there alone while eating some BBQ, feel the sand and walk along the beach.. if i could do that......
everyday i stay late till i slept almost 3 a.m. because i did not felt sleepy at all. This is because at campus during this time im studying. next Saturday,i go back to campus.. seems like i will miss my room,kitchen..as i did not cook at campus as we already provided by campus a fews cafe and canteen..i love to cook but i can't..if i could do that....
sometimes,i want to lie down on the grass and feel the wind..could i do that? i dont know..i just want some peace place and talk to nature...if i could do that...
now, what i suppose to do? listing the need in campus? urmm..perhaps.
so,gudbye! =)
me, one unity...
Here is my second favourite dishes. This one i made it by myself..=p it is quite simple for us to cook and i hope everybody can test it!!
First u have to boiled the eggs and the water is depends on the quantity of eggs. Then we poured some water into the curry but not too much. Heat the oil,put the red onion and the curry, stirred it. put some sugar and preservative then put the eggs on it! Then it cooks! =) have a try and say CHEESE!
Hello all!
Today i am going to introduced my favourite food and i want to share it to all readers..=)
Potato Leaves commonly is a traditional food in Sarawak,Malaysia.The taste is very marvellous and the way we cook is definitely different from others as we have to make it into pieces with mortar and pestle especially imported from Malaysia.
The dishes below is my mother's cooking...=) i love my mother's cooking as i will miss it when i continue my studies for the next semester..love u Mum!!
Today i am going to introduced my favourite food and i want to share it to all readers..=)
Potato Leaves commonly is a traditional food in Sarawak,Malaysia.The taste is very marvellous and the way we cook is definitely different from others as we have to make it into pieces with mortar and pestle especially imported from Malaysia.
The dishes below is my mother's cooking...=) i love my mother's cooking as i will miss it when i continue my studies for the next semester..love u Mum!!
life
is not that joyful
all the time..
there is a sorrow
without people knows
even though
we treated people nice
they don't treated us well
as u do
life
emptiness..loneliness..
is what i feel now
no one knows
only almighty God
what i want
only
peaceful in life
i have my family
my beloved
and friends..
even though i have them
but
i still feel empty
in my deeply heart..
it should be have a reason
for this..
how i could find it??
me myself and i
never knows
sometimes i want to give up
but
GOd told me
fight the life
dont give up..
i try
and
i made it..
but
it comes again
a troubles challenge
my soul my life
more than i can say..
life full of frustration,
word of wonders,
sorrowful..
but
life is meaningful to me
even though
it is painful...
because i am thinking
What is life when all you do is breath
with no mission,
as it lies around
and does nothing but explode you
when you are limited against others
if you cant tell what's there for you
What is life if i have no answers to these questions
and you don't know the end to..
after your death
when all you've worked for cant die along with you
as life gift from
the above
i will do..what i suppose to do..
-mulawin-
is not that joyful
all the time..
there is a sorrow
without people knows
even though
we treated people nice
they don't treated us well
as u do
life
emptiness..loneliness..
is what i feel now
no one knows
only almighty God
what i want
only
peaceful in life
i have my family
my beloved
and friends..
even though i have them
but
i still feel empty
in my deeply heart..
it should be have a reason
for this..
how i could find it??
me myself and i
never knows
sometimes i want to give up
but
GOd told me
fight the life
dont give up..
i try
and
i made it..
but
it comes again
a troubles challenge
my soul my life
more than i can say..
life full of frustration,
word of wonders,
sorrowful..
but
life is meaningful to me
even though
it is painful...
because i am thinking
What is life when all you do is breath
with no mission,
as it lies around
and does nothing but explode you
when you are limited against others
if you cant tell what's there for you
What is life if i have no answers to these questions
and you don't know the end to..
after your death
when all you've worked for cant die along with you
as life gift from
the above
i will do..what i suppose to do..
-mulawin-
Since i do nothing during my holiday, i was decided to make a jelly with the help of my aunt's instruction..in theory. =P So i have to listen carefully even though sometimes i daydreaming..hahaha :p Here i want to share my Jelly to all readers =)
The Ingredient:
1) Jelly (2 packs)
2) Pandan Flavor
3) Food Color of Green
4) Some sugar
5) Melting milk
6) Some Cracker
At first, wash the jelly in the hot pot for an hour. Then, boiled the jelly until it melting.
The next step is put the Pandan Flavor ( don't put too much), Food Color of Green ( don't too dark green), some sugar ( test it first for the sweetness)and melting milk (4 glasses)and crush the cracker according to your test. Stir it till boil.
No heat then cover the hot pot for 10 minutes. Put the jelly on the cake mould and put in the frigde. After it cold, make the shape of jelly with a mould (depends on your own creativity).
Lastly, eat the Green Jelly with your family!! =)
I put some french fries as a decoration..hahaha..!!! not professional as a chef =P
The Ingredient:
1) Jelly (2 packs)
2) Pandan Flavor
3) Food Color of Green
4) Some sugar
5) Melting milk
6) Some Cracker
At first, wash the jelly in the hot pot for an hour. Then, boiled the jelly until it melting.
The next step is put the Pandan Flavor ( don't put too much), Food Color of Green ( don't too dark green), some sugar ( test it first for the sweetness)and melting milk (4 glasses)and crush the cracker according to your test. Stir it till boil.
No heat then cover the hot pot for 10 minutes. Put the jelly on the cake mould and put in the frigde. After it cold, make the shape of jelly with a mould (depends on your own creativity).
Lastly, eat the Green Jelly with your family!! =)
I put some french fries as a decoration..hahaha..!!! not professional as a chef =P
Arghh..what i suppose to do during my semester break huh?? 100% i will not hold any book except Sudoku and Genius Link..hahah! im U student as i take diploma in accountancy at UiTM. next July i will be in Semester 3.. 2 more years to go. play with the numbers 12345556&*%^$@ arghghhhh..sometimes i got headache but i do like it.hahahahaa! at first, i was so stressed and depressed with financial accounting until i cry cry cry..huhu..then i pray to God, pray for my studies and God do accept my prayer..AMEN! thx God i managed to do my job as a student and HE gave me peace in mind..:) so,PRAYer IS THE WAY for us to success in life!!
i just stay at home and online every day updating my blog. my friends most of them now in form6 and this year they will have their STPM. that is why im so boringggg...huhu.. anyone there??? help me loooo....:( i was thinking to try new recipe..thinking to buy some recipe book especially from Chef WAn..hahaha..mhmm..am i planning the right thing?? hahaha!!
haiyaaaa...i don't know what to do now.. huhu..:( i wish to go to the beach but now is already night..hwahwahwa ;(
it is better for me play games right now..huhu.. NFS Carbon, IM COMING!!!!!
gudnite all.. tadaa
i just stay at home and online every day updating my blog. my friends most of them now in form6 and this year they will have their STPM. that is why im so boringggg...huhu.. anyone there??? help me loooo....:( i was thinking to try new recipe..thinking to buy some recipe book especially from Chef WAn..hahaha..mhmm..am i planning the right thing?? hahaha!!
haiyaaaa...i don't know what to do now.. huhu..:( i wish to go to the beach but now is already night..hwahwahwa ;(
it is better for me play games right now..huhu.. NFS Carbon, IM COMING!!!!!
gudnite all.. tadaa
HEALING AND PRAYER:
Jeremiah 1:12
The LORD said to me, "You have seen correctly, for I am watching [1] to see that my word is fulfilled."
I can do all things through Christ which strengtheneth me. -Philip 4:13
Exodus 15:26
He said, "If you listen carefully to the voice of the LORD your God and do what is right in his eyes, if you pay attention to his commands and keep all his decrees, I will not bring on you any of the diseases I brought on the Egyptians, for I am the LORD, who heals you."
Psalm 107:19-20
Then they cried to the LORD in their trouble, and he saved them from their distress. 20) He sent forth his word and healed them; he rescued them from the grave.
Matthew 21:21
Jesus replied, "I tell you the truth, if you have faith and do not doubt, not only can you do what was done to the fig tree, but also you can say to this mountain, `Go, throw yourself into the sea,' and it will be done"
THE IMPORTANCE OF FORGIVENESS AND LOVE
James 5:16
Therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for each other so that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous man is powerful and effective
Hebrews 13:1-2
Keep on loving each other as brothers. 2) Do not forget to entertain strangers, for by so doing some people have entertained angels without knowing it.
Romans 13:9-10
The commandments, "Do not commit adultery," "Do not murder," "Do not steal," "Do not covet," and whatever other commandment there may be, are summed up in this one rule: "Love your neighbor as yourself." 10) Love does no harm to its neighbor. Therefore love is the fulfillment of the law.
Morning all..here i want to share words from God to all readers so that we knows God is there for us. Apply all the words if possible and with His blessed, our life will be much better. Alleluya! If there any problems or suggestion,please do response and i will help as much as i can :)
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