Regretted

Dear readers,

I want to shares my problems,what i am having now and my feeling.. at my University, i have found that finding a friend is not that easy. i have a lot of friend but none of them are good friend.. some of them step my back and says bad thing about me. i do have a weakness but they do not make their own friend embarrassed. do they think i am their friend?

i used to play netball. in our team, there is a conflict among us. ms I always keep looking for others mistakes but her own mistakes she did not realized. hate her.. besides, she always keep closed to our coach. what the @#$%.. hate to see a person like her. she act likes she knows everything. why people surrounds me so irritating.. why there is no a good friend? i only have Flora and few of my friends.

do they think they are good enough to make others feels damn?? what i hate most is one of my trusted friend said i am playing netball like a dog! oh please...do they even saw a DOG playing netball?? they sucks though...i know i am not good enough to be one of them as excellent player.. worst than ever is my own friend who used to closed with me says bad thing bout me.. what do you feel if your own friend said like that?? it is hurt....

they treat me nicely but talking bad about me to others.. are they a good friends?? they should advise each other but not step back of each other...i am really regretted for having a friend like them..

about love, i told my friend that i already clash.. she told me that my ex have scandal... i was so angry, regretted,sad, and so for... HATE HIM!!!! HATE HIM BECAUSE I LOVE HIM!..=..( he was my first love and till now i still miss him but i don't want to return because he is egoism. lets i am hurting myself ,rather than with his egoism.. he made me thought of love is suck.. and i don't believe love for this time..after knowing he have scandal, i feel likes...i don't know how to describe my feeling..its hurt......

friendship,love...both of it, i have fails.. i am regretted for my ex and my #$%&* friends... i can release my tension and stress through blogger because i don't want to trust others but only certain people...

now, i have no idea how to confront them..because everyday i met them and make slumber face and make do know about what had happened.. i feel bad.. i only trust God, my family and few friends..

regretted,
One Unity